It has been described how a single mother tragically awoke to find her infant son dead next to her in bed.

Amanda Saucedo, who is from Lorain, Ohio, was awoken when her one month old son Ben began to cry in the middle of the night. After changing Ben’s diaper, she brought him into his bed to feed him.

The American army veteran, a mother of two, went to bed, but when she woke up at 8 in the morning, she realized that something very wrong.

Ben’s blood was covering his body, which was floating. Amanda is still affected by the atrocity, which took place on November 11, 2014, to this day.

The Scientific Parent was informed by Amanda, who also has a five-year-old son by the name of Trae: Ben, my beloved, was curled up next to me as usual when I turned to face him.

However, there was a problem. His nostril was stuck halfway down and his face was pale. When I stood up, Ben was next to a pool of blood.

I said to myself, “No.” This is not happening!

“When my infant son was 30 days old, I picked him up, laid him on his back, and started gently shaking him while yelling, “Ben! Get up! Ben, get up!’

“By then, I understood he wouldn’t awaken. He had left already.”

“I paced my living room as I carried Ben downstairs and spoke with the (911) operator.”

She inquired numerous times about starting CPR. Each time, there was no justification, I informed her. Ben was gone.

“He’s no longer resembled Ben, and I could feel the stiffness in his small, hard body. I knew there was no escape. He was gone for several hours.”

Amanda was questioned by the police about her alcohol and drug use, and the case was sent to an inquest.

Was Ben suffering when he died?,” Amanda continued. was the sole question I asked the coroner.

He stated that suffocation typically does not cause pain to young children.

“At that precise moment, guilt consumed my entire being and life. Did I kill Ben?”

However, I was aware that I would not roll over and lie on top of him. The coroner asserts that suffocation is a synonym for suffocation.

When I somehow fell asleep, Ben choked. I assured him that Ben’s airway was unobstructed. How did this occur if his nose and mouth were not covered? I can’t figure it out.

I had the impression that they found me guilty, as if I had done something to sleep for an unusually long time, despite the detective’s kindness. Nonetheless, there was nothing there.

“I go to hell on this day. This is the worst story to tell. It does not appear to be getting any simpler.”

Ben’s cause of death was determined to be “asphyxiation caused by unsafe sleeping arrangements,” despite the lack of evidence to support this.

Amanda says of the choice, “I was enraged and wracked with responsibility.”

Naturally, other people always want to make their own decisions and guess what could have gone wrong when things like this happen.

The only people who have accidents in bed are those who have been drinking, using drugs, or getting fat, right?

This parent or caregiver has definitely not followed the mainstream parenting physician’s safe sleep recommendations.

The rest of the world is always looking for guilt—any excuse they can find to keep the illusion that they will never feel it.

Isn’t every healthy child doomed to die? They unfortunately do. My own did.”

Amanda is now speaking out in order to raise awareness about SUDI, SIDS, and the potential dangers of sharing a bed with a newborn.

She stated,” It is shocking and upsetting to lose a child. It is sad and enraged.”

All of the conflicts spring from grief at once. I would do anything to prevent others from suffering.

You lose both yourself and your child when that happens. There are always two parts to life: before and after your child’s death. You change with time.

I believe it is my duty to educate parents about good sleep habits after Ben’s death. Information is welcome, though not always.

There is a lot of information about how to share a bed safely on the internet. In the wake of losing Ben, I can’t help but concur.

The risk of sudden infant death or SUID for a newborn who shares a bed has been demonstrated scientifically numerous times.

Many individuals let me know that they would prefer to be with their child than alone assuming their child kicks the bucket startlingly while they are dozing. I must also disagree.

I will carry it to the grave because I am unsure whether my child would still be alive today if he had been left to sleep alone.

I believe that if I had followed the ABCs of safe sleep, I would not have had to live with constant doubt and shame if Ben had passed away.

Could it have been avoided that he died? I might never know. However, I would never wish this irrational guilt on anyone.

Using a short story written by her son, Amanda introduces Benny Bears to new parents.